More than a year since my last journal entry? Hu-wow! And reading what I had written and where we were back then - wow we have changed. I think I stopped writing too since facebook has taken over how I journal memories. Posting pictures and short status does document our lives. But a diary is different.
What urged me to write again? I need to write as part of my healing process! Ha!
I unfortunately got Dengue as confirmed by an official test, which led to hospitalization and a blood transfusion. Looking at my previous post, I may have actually gotten Dengue before and this hospitalization may not have been my first Dengue case. And that could explain why I had it so bad this time around. I shall write about that.
Another reason I have to journal again is this new life changing venture my husband and I started - one year ago! Yes one year ago and it seems we haven't achieved much to change our lives. That's what I think anyway. I have a lot of processing to do. And I need to write it and get it out rather than having it all these thoughts and "stuff" in my head.
Of course, there is my spiritual journey. I have an actual pen and paper where I keep notes for my circles, chats, lights - if you may call them that. Actual ink and paper. Which, after a few years will get lost. It is nice to go back to a journal that won't get lost! Especially in my messy home! All the clutter and beautiful chaos!
That's why I think having an online journal is a good idea. It's public and there are privacy issues. Identity theft and being targeted for whatever reason is a scary thing these days. So I hope I have kept everything a little bit anonymous enough. So if someone wants to really go after me, he/she will have to do research. Not that I think my life is interesting enough or someone would have reason to go after me and plan something evil or unkind.
And, after I am long gone, I wonder if my children will go through these online blogs to pick up a few things they have learned from me. And something positive that they can possibly pass on to their own children.
Oh, another reason I stopped blogging is I created emails for my children. Where I send them emails about daily things. I even send them pictures I took using my phone so they can look back on those days. I should do both - have this journal going and continue emailing them. I plan to give them the password of their emails when they are 18 or when they start working or when they get married -- haven't thought of when yet.
So guardian angels, help me please... let me write again since its a great outlet for me and can only do good. Let me find the time I need to write.
